YESTERDAY'S GONE
after some sms-in & calls, i finally got e ans from u. u admit you're afraid of me, i got a bad temper. i neglected u & take u for granted. everytime when i do something dat u don't like, u tried to say but u stop halfway cos u're afraid to tell me. thats y everytime i duno y u suddenly black face & aft that u're ok. now i know why. but its too late. i guess this is our life, its fated. our mindsets are so diff. evrytime we talked abt our probs & we tot it was solved, but in fact, they hav nvr been solved. tats why probs acumulated & became a disaster.
yes i noe you're numb to this relationship, u felt hurt. i noe u've faded feelins bcos of e things i did. but let me tell u, i really did not mean it. i truly treasure u & buyin things is not bcos i tot that wil show how much i love u, its to see e happiness on yr face tt wil makes me happy too. too much misunderstandings, too much probs. it will never be solved cos its too late.
whatever it is, i noe its over, n we can nvr go back to e past, never ever. im sorry if i've hurt u or neglected u, but i really did not mean it. jus wana say i can forgive but nvr forget e things u did to me too. u said u moved on easily is bcos u're numb to e r/s, but where's yr responsibility? how can u move on without breakin up wit me first? do u noe what is two-timing? do u noe what is lying? do u noe how hurt im to be e last to know? do u noe hw painful i am when someone tels me what she see? & i can never believe u're e one doing it. i always tot u won't lie to me, i always trust u. but im wrong.
i stil cant imagine hw u changes your words everytime u talk to me. 1st u say u will settle her cos u noe im e one that u love, u will always be with me. e next day u ask me to choose btw a triangle r/s or evryone goes separate ways. i cant take it, e qns was too ridiculous, & i almost chose e 1st choice bcos i cant control myself loving u but fortunately i woke up, & told myself why am i so dumb. third u told me we shall end, but u're with tt gal now. why e things that u say r so different everytime? yes i admit, i've got entirely no trust wit u now. u know hw hard is it to build up trust but breakin it is so easy w/o any force? do u ever know?
whatever it is, past is e past. my priority now is my families & frns. relationship put aside 1st. im gonna concentrate on my work, i believe time heals, i wil just treat it as a lesson learnt in my life. i see all kinds of pp & i tell myself fortunately i met them early, den next time i noe hw to manage such ppl. i wil always rem e memories we spent, but it wil always stay as memories, thats all. nth mre than that.
thank you for all e love & concern you showered to me in e past, thank you for making me feel like im once e luckiest woman in e world. thank you for allowing me to learn so many things. im gonna start afresh & a new rachel is gonna appear. i would nvr turn back, nvr ever. jus keep on walking.
not forgeting to thanks those that had been by my side during these painful days. sammy, melody, san, wenhui, serene, issac, stradic, my family & many more, u guys r e best people on earth. i love u all! & i will definitely cherish all e moments spend wit u ppl. thank you very much! don't worry abt me k? as time passes, i believe i will slowly forget abt e unhappy memories & move on to a new life. sorry to make u guys worry so much. hugs! & as for u, just wish u all e best in your future endeavours...
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December 25, 2008
